An Honest Prayer

I realize that anything I come up with as a reason for not spending time with you lately is just an excuse that doesn't hold any weight to you, but is the best that I can do. I am sorry for thinking that I don't need you constantly and taking control of what is rightfully yours because You created me and also because I willingly gave my life to You. Forgive me for not sharing, no not giving everything to you. I need reminders of who you are and how enormous and important a role you play in my life and who I want to be. I am struggling . . . give me patience for Your will, and trust in what it is that you are doing, keep me strong.