This is my all time most favorite song of theirs and it basically describes the struggles in my life. There isn't really much else to say . . ."Surrender" from the first album, Barlow Girl 2005.

"My hands hold safley to my dreams
Clutching tightly no one has fallen
So many years I've shaped each one
Reflecting my heart showing who I am
Now you're asking me to show
What Im holding oh so tighlty
Can't open my hands, cant let go
Doesn't matter, should i show you
Can't you let me go
Surrender, surrender you whisper gently
You say i will be free
I know but can't you see
My dreams are me
My dreams are me

Say you have a plan for me
And that you want the best for my life
Told me the world had yet to see
What you can do with
One thats committed to you calling
Oh of course what I should do
And I can't hold these dreams foever
But if I give them now to you
Will you take them away forever
Or can I dream again

Surrender, surrender you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but cant you see
My dreams are me
My dreams are me, yeah

Surrender, surrender you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but cant you see
My dreams are me
My dreams are me
Surrender"

I bought the new barlow girl cd and the lyrics of these songs could not be more truthful or more applicable to my life and the lives of many. I would like to share a song with you. Giving credit to the Barlow girls and their new album Another Journal Entry that came out this year here is "Let Go"

"Yeah I Trust In You
I Remember Times You Led Me
This Time It's Bigger Now
And I'm Afraid
You'll Let Me Down

But How Can I Be Certain?
Will Your Prove Yourself Again?

Cause I'm About To Let Go
And Live What I Believe
I Can't Do A Thing Now
But Trust That
You'll Catch Me
When I Let Go
When I Let Go

What Is This Doubt In Me
Convincing Me To Fear The Unknown
When All Along You've Shown
Your Plans Are Better Than My Own

And I Know I Won't Make It
If I Do This All Alone"

We only let God take control of little parts of our lives and each time that we do it turns out better than anything we could have done. Yet when something big comes along we have a hard time trusting that God will follow through like last time. We want so much for things to go our way and are afraid if we let it out of our hands everything will go wrong. That saying "if you want something done right you've got to do it yourself," fits right in here. Really it should say that if we want something done right then we've got to give it up to God and let Him do it. Not an easy thing to do is it?
Ever since the hurricane destroyed people's homes and lives as they knew them in Louisiana, I have wanted to give my support and help them get back on their feet but i never actually thought that the opportunity would come my way with everything already taken care of. I was recently asked to join a group of people to go to New Orleans and clean up some debris, all expenses paid and i jumped on it. I got as many details as I could about the trip and told my parents about it. They flipped, mostly my dad. I know that he doesnt want his little girl across the country where he can't be the one in charge or providing the protection, but i had no doubt that it would be safe and an amazing opportunity to serve. My dad told me not to go and as you might be able to tell, so far I'm not listening. The trip is only a week away and I realized that I didn't even ask my heavenly father if this is something that he has planned for me. I got so excited that I am trying to take it all into my hands and forgot that I am going to need my heavenly father there with me to complete this task of hard labor and heart crushing sights. I am starting to get a little worried about the whole thing. Is this something that I am supposed to be doing right now? Is my dad telling me not to go a sign? I don't like to therefore I rarely do anything that disappoints someone that I love and that makes this trip a big deal to me. Something bigger than anything else I have ever done. It's not going to be easy to let God take control completely, but I don't have any other choice at this point and I know it's the best one.